Fruitful day?

I guess it is a very fruitful day! =)

First, i woke up then prepare and off to school for 1.5hrs for newsletter discussion. Next was off to church =) Seriously, above all else, it is still the basic of first love which matter the most!! *Thumbs up* for Dr Niko for his simple yet full of conviction sharing!
Last but not least was meeting PEARLY LIM for dinner, fellowship and movie!! Watched Shaolin.. Never like action movie because of the grue, however let's just say at the end of the day, it is still the company that really matters! Dont you agree?

I'm gonna sleep now!! =)
Shall update more tomorrow!! =)

Another post =)

Yes! to me this what friendship is all about =)

Please tell me, am i an over-fantasize dreamer? Even if you tell me i am, I will just reply" Thank you =) "

I had the best combined leaders meeting ever!
One that i felt so broken, and free after which...

Throughout the whole sermon we learn about the the absence of a father which was something that was the key to all my questions.. Thank you Pst Kong! =)

I am proud to be in CHC- City Harvest Church! Most importantly, i am thankful that i can help to play a part in His wonderful kingdom!!



amazing song =) if you feel a bit too long.. can start from 1:50 =)

Hi I AM BACK! =)

I have cleared 2 modules' presentation and role play..

Now is left with Assignments, assignments, assignments and more assignments!! =( Okay, shall be more optimistic, i am only left with 3 more modules, one practicum then NO MORE! Then it will be time to focus on my O levels then next will be diploma..

Fundamental Certificate of Early Childhood, I am SO going to conquer you! =)

Just wrote down all of my New Year Resolution on the notebook which my sis gave it to me =)
This time, way more specific! Learn from service that it is important to mix your prayers together with your resolution!! Thus shall try it and proclaim them all by faith!

This year will definitely be a special year for me! I am going to do things differently~

i want my nails to grow~

Yes, today i feel way better than the other day...
Everything is finally resolved =)

I am so happy we could talk things out..

Anyways, about my title, it is because I dont know what happened but two fingernails of my right hand broke!! =( the worst part, Chinese new year is coming!!!

To sidetrack slightly, i think i either strain or sprain my ankle...
It is hurting quite badly =( When i try to rotate my ankle, it will make cracking sound... Conclusion? pain like nobody's business =(

Above all else, You still rules! =)
Something to share with all of you people! =)

okay.. i think last straw...

I am disappointed, i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed,i am disappointed!

Grrr....



Thanks....

Stars in the Sky- have you found your star?

This is my star which i hold on dearly...

Whenever i feel things come down way too heavy than what i can bear, i will always use this verse to remind me.



The song that i will never fail tearing, though she doesnt get the pitch and notes all right, neither the lyrics pronounce the best anyone can do but hey, i think she captivated me =)

Isn't God amazing?



The Lord's prayer, though she can't recite the whole thing without asking her mum, but she is still beautiful!

You know something?
i think i was really glad that i went for service today though i felt really tired..
It wasn't about anything but to feel Him so near is an awesome feeling!

If you wondering am i going to preach here? I am not! =)

I am feeling thankful though,

I thank Him for placing me in CHC ( yes, if you are not liking this already, it is okay =) )
for making me who i am..

For all you guys know, i personally suffers panic attacks too. I hate being in the crowd of people whom i don't know, i don't like sitting with people whom i don't know, the more you should be crazy to ask me to introduce myself or interact with them.

However, as years goes by in CHC, there is near to no way you can remain always at the back scene. I also suffers from poor self-esteem, I am always very conscience with what i wear, do, eat and behave because i am very sensitive to how people thought about me. ( Till this very day, it is still a struggle, getting better but definitely not gone yet.)

Let me share with you a peek into my past,
In the past, there WERE such thing as make- up cellgroups which you attend when you can't make it for your own. When it comes to introduction, i can never "survive" through after 3 words of, "My name is..." by then i will be crying already! That is how afraid i will get when facing strangers. During testimony, no matter how much i want to share the testimony, i will always end up crying while sharing, because i can't stand people all looking at me.

Yes, if you are reading this, knowing who i am now and wondering," Are you sure that is JASMINE LIM SHU FEN?" Lo and behold yes! Though i am as loud as i can be when comes to fellowship, cellgroup meetings, leading games, testimony, offerings and sometime to do introduction, that is still who i am.

Like what Pst Kong does, i do it too. Before i get in position, i will first take deep breaths, look into Melissa's eyes and my leader's eyes for assurance, whisper " God help me okay?" then smile and speak at the top of my voice =) Sometimes i will also use laughter to cover up. That is my trick =) Especially when coming to playing the guitar, that was the hardest step of my life! If it wasn't for Dorcas, i don't think i will actually play guitar for my cellgroup now neither will i continue guitar. Being a guitarist is hard, being a guitarist with panic attacks are WORSE! With all eyes on you, sometimes with the tiny winy mistakes or offbeat you can get even more attention.

I remember after the very first time playing for the cellgroup, i made mistakes, almost gave up on the spot but i played till the end but no one is perfect, while i felt lousy playing offbeat and wrong key, some were laughing, though i know it wasn't their intention to laugh at me but i was truly affected. When Dorcas ask me to play for the following week, i told her, " Dorcas, i don't think i am up for it, can i don't play?" While waiting for her reply, i was just reflecting while i felt something speaking to me that, " is that what you want? the purpose for you to literally starve to save up for a guitar till your dad buying it for you is for this? To give up? Just like that?" I was expecting Dorcas to reply okay. (Thank goodness she did not reply) I then decided, "no i am not going to give up." So i told Dorcas in another message, " Hi Dorcas, please ignore my previous message, i want to play =) Can you please let me know the songs?" The next moment, she replied me with the songs. Within like 5 mins i guess? while she took 10mins to NOT even reply my previous one..

God is really good to me =)
More testimonies coming up =) hope i don't scare all of you too much =)
LOVES~

Nice

I'm once again in clinic! :(
How awesome did this day started off?
First I woke up with bad pain at the abdomen then was having closet malfunction then the very next thing tried to get a cab so I can get myself down to work, had LOTS of cab! But they either chose to do U-Turn or it was RED! Either "Busy", "On Call" or "Hired"!

Super great right?! Was literally stamping my feet! Hopefully this horrible throat will recover before my boss gets so pissed and fires me :(

Can't believe I'm actually blogging in the clinic!!
Hmmmm.. Everyone is all coughing as bad as me.. So this is not a horrible sign I guess.

The best part, I wore damn ugly! As in with leggings cuz I thought I'm going work so can't wear shorts only.. Now I so wanna take it out!! Hahaz!

If you are wondering what is the purpose of my blog post today, it is randonm plus random plus super random! Hopefully tonight's appreciation will be something to kick off all these "NiCE" things!

Reviving time!!

Yes!! It is time that i regain blogging power! =)

This shall not die off unknowingly AGAIN..

My "Ex-husband"- Yan Chengling is admitted into hospital once again. I left her a comment at her FB's wall saying, " YAN CHENGLING is a piggo that goes A&E as frequent as going toilet, pangseh as easy as pangsai.. but ultimately still is as nice to me as to spongebob =)) all random but works right? =D"

Well, she answered me quite well in her comment, but i shall not post it =)

It is 2011! A brand new year!
New year resolution (openly?! yes!)
Gets slimmer- to loss at least 2-3kgs
Be more patient with the kids at Pebble- shout lesser, hug more
Be more sensitive to my surrounding
Want to be a sensitive friend to all my BESTFRIENDS
Have a Boyfriend? =) (mum have already started asking...)
Have a niece or nephew! =) (i know i cant do this, but Pearly Lim, I'm praying HARD!)
Able to be fruitful in ministry
Be more healthy!
Exercise at least once a week
Complete Bible reading
Help at least 15 people in areas which i can offer.
Appreciate my friends and family more!
Improve my guitar skills! =)

Wow.. the resolution already make me excited and burning!! =)

I will proclaim that THIS SHALL BE THE GREATEST YEAR YET!

Though i know troubles may come in my way but i pray that i will not stumble.
Remember using this phrase as my MSN nick for a while few years back, "Obstacles are not your stumbling block! It is a stepping stone!"

God i place all in Your hands! =)

I got to wake up at 7 later, and now is already 2.35am! i BETTER sleep! Later will be an awesome day.

Before i end, need to remember, " HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDY TAN ( 姐夫)! HOPE YOU WILL ENJOY THIS FIRST BIRTHDAY WITH PEARLY LIM! AS YOUR WIFE! ALSO PLEASE WORK HARDER AND GIVE ME A NIECE OR NEPHEW SOON!! ;P"

Mixed Feeling

Definition of friend-

1. A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts.

2. A person whom one knows; an acquaintance.

3. A person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; a comrade.

4. One who supports, sympathizes with, or patronizes a group, cause, or movement.

This is the definition of friend which i found through online dictionary.

Yes! let's talk about friendship today.
I feel so far away from all my friends recently.. Often being ignored regardless of messages ( in terms of smses, msn), lots of missing call to friends, totally not responding or just entertaining response.

YES! I'm affected, upset and i need to find answers!
Perhaps, pissed too!

2011, a year which growth of maturity should be obtain! Patience, Love, Compassion and Passion!

Only if one knew how i'm feeling from within. So feel like tearing now! Grrr.. I'm tired of initiating meet-ups, tired of being the first to message, tired of being the one who tries to accommodate, compromise just in order to please a few people!!

还是原来那个我
不过撂掉几公升泪所以变瘦
对着镜子我承诺
迟早我会换这张脸应对笑容
不算什么 爱错就爱错
早点认错 早一点解脱
我寂寞寂寞就好
这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱
就让我一个人去痛到
受不了伤到快疯掉
死不了就还好
我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用来我回忆里微笑
我就不相信我会笨到
忘不了赖着不放掉
人本来就寂寞的
借来的都该还掉
我总会把你戒掉

还是原来那个你
是我自己做梦你又改变什么
再多的爱也没用
每个人有每个人的业障因果
会有什么 什么都没有
早点看破 才看的见以后
我寂寞寂寞就好
这时候谁都别来安慰拥抱
就让我一个人去痛到
受不了伤到快疯掉
死不了就还好
我寂寞寂寞就好
你真的不用来我回忆里微笑
我就不相信我会笨到
忘不了赖着不放掉
人本来就寂寞的
我总会把你戒掉

those who dont know chinese, this is a damn good song, can translate the lyrics i guess =)

*sadded to the MAX!*

God, i need Your strength to move on! Only You are not judgmental, Only You will never change! =(